you can’t fight a forest fire with a bucket of water

It astounds me how much I lack self-control. I keep starving for attention and affection, and go to great lengths to get what I want… even though I know it’s but a momentary glimpse of happiness that isn’t even real. I break my own rules, disobey my own conscience, and fool myself into thinking that I chose the right path and made the right choices. I gamble more than I what I can afford, and I lose every single time.  I’m tumbling down this bottomless hole. I’ll never learn and the worst part is that I’m not doing anything to change that.

You should have never trusted me.

How To Disappear Completely

I haven’t blogged here in a while. I suppose it’s because I’m so caught up in this rapid pace of what would be called my life. I hate it though. I hate having to run so hard, so fast, not really knowing where I’m going. And it’s even worse when I keep looking back, trying to see what’s behind me and if I should focus on that instead.

I’m going to hit a brick wall, I know it. Or maybe I already have.